hiie.Sadness is still e word....Second dae after he
had left fer PERTH...haix...Y?Wat does it mean?
I dunno when i will be able tuu c him again...*SIGH*
Everyone is feeling so down...
nth much happened 2dae...wat can i expect?I am
nw leaving a life without him...If he was here,things
would be much better.I wont be feeling wat i am
feeling nw....
maybe dis is wat god had planned...So sad...I juz
wanna tell him dat I MISS HIM SO MUCH!!!I noe nw
how it feels tuu let go of someone dear tuu euu.It
hurts real much...I dun think I want it anymore....
it is so unfair...Haix...Couldnt concentrate,focus
n stuffs...All dat i could think of was wat I hoped i
would ferget fer nw...Thinking of him only makes
miie feel worse...
arghhhhhh...is there anything i can do tuu ferget?
i dun think there is.All i can do is wait patiently,wif
sufferings,burdens n stuffs.I still have tuu wait fer dunno
how long more but i can sae dat it isnt gonna be so fast...
maybe in a month time or so...somewhere near xmas...
will he be back by miie bdae?i hope dat all miie gud
frenz will be here wif miie tuu celebrate miie bdae.
i dun wanna go thru it alone...haix...rite nw,I am depending
on one person tuu carry miie cross wif miie..haix...I wonder
how many of euu will do it...
haix...ppl thx fer being there when i needed euu all.I hope dat
of euu will stay as euu r fereva...coz of him...i have tuu suffer
dis hardships...persevere n keep miie promise bout waiting
fer his return...i dunno if i can make it...
no one noes exactly how i feel...but a few of euu,including him,
noes more than e others...I am so tired...energy drained...due
tuu tuu much crying...i dunno how n wat tuu do...Almost everydae
I cry...coz of him...it is so hurting...
Glenn,dis is fer euu...
In times of troubles,sadness n stuffs,thx
fer being there fer miie...Nw dat euu r gone
fer quite sometime,well,i guess i need tuu let
euu noe how I feel...I feel so drained...tired.
All e stupid n silly things dat we wrote or did,I
miss them all.
Most importantly,I MISS EUU.I told euu dat I cant
imagine miie life without euu b4 euu leave.Do euu
remember dis?i hope euu do.I am feeling moodless
rite nw...dis is how i feel when euu r not around.
I guess euu believe miie nw.Neva felt dis way b4...
so,nw dat i have told euu a little,will euu ever ps
miie again?Dun leave us alone here anymore kaess?
i neva wanna let euu go anymore...It isnt as easy
as euu imagined it tuu be.I tot dat i could live as
free as euu said...but,no.things r wat i expected...
if euu r reading dis nw,i want euu tuu noe dat i cant
go on without euu.When euu r here,I may be sad...
but at least,euu r here fer miie.Nw euu r not even here,
ask val how i have been...*sigh*it really isnt easy...
its painful..
euu r all dat i need..e motivator of miie life.It is
fer euu dat I continue living...Euu r e best kor* i ever
had...I have not fergotten ure promises...we had not
i will wait...wait till e dae when euu r back.By then,
i promise euu,I will go wif euu...We'll c e stars we had
wantted tuu c...
iMISSeuu//*
LOVES,
-uremeii[miie]
