ytd was pretty fun .
well , went to vivo to watch NARNIA , met jana before that .
then she wanted to tag along , so , yeaps .
jourdan came after that (:
met the pig there then bought tics .
so funny lahs ? JAN & I went gaga over the puppies .
they're like , oh-so-cute ?
hurhur .
anyw , watched the show , blah blah .
ting and ber came to meet us after our show .
then they managed to hit off real well with JANA ?
that's a good thing .
they say wanna go to somerset after that to look for
sheryl and cut cake for mel's birthday .
in the end , we met sheryl there ,
with two other friends then say play pool at dhoby . -.-
whatever lahs ?
jourdan , jana , me and swee han went to cathay and
sat there to wait for them .
mood came back during that time , but not completely .
then , things went on as it is .
they called us after that , saying they wanna
go to somerset again .
like , what the hell ?
i'm tired alr , tired of so many things .
but okay lahs , we went .
but swee han went off first to look for his friends .
reach there , time was rather late so we
stayed for like five mins only ?
sorry people , waste of time and ezlink fare ):
jana stayed over last night .
i actually waited for a call/msg lah , but , nvm .
till now , i'm still as dead as ytd lahs ?
like , i dint really sleep last night .
in fact , i dint .
woke up early as usual , then ju-lyn ask us to meet her
at orchard , wheelock place .
then she drove us to jelita's colds storage to get
the stuffs for tmrw's bbq , which is at jourdan's hse .
after that , we brought all the things to her bf's hse which is super
near the colds storage , then helped to marinade
and stuffs .
she treat us to haato ice-cream after that .
like , gosh . i was freaking happy can ?
for that time .
like , RUM&RAISIN ! lol .
then drove us to jourdan's hse to put those stuff there .
on our way , i was msging .
i felt super disturbed lahs ?
like , what the hell is wrong with **** ?
walked home from there after that .
i'm feeling so vexed can ?
sometimes , i try to entertain myself to make myself happy .
even others .
but , it's damn freaking titring when someone doesnt appreciate
it and all lahs ?
but , overall , ytd was fun at first , then boring , then okay ,
disappointed at ythe end of the day .
as for today , it was tiring , rather fun and disappointed again .
*sigh*
i dont know what i'm gonna do lahs .
the following is meant for a friend:
look , no matter what , i'll be here for you .
though i'm tired , i still wont give up lahs ?
you sound so much better when you're crazy , trust me .
and smile more , for goodness sake .
well , things will be okay for her .
just be there for her when she's down okay ?
dont regret again .
you'll only know how impt. one is when you lose that person .
so , yeah .
thanks for ytd , i had a great time with you guys (:
please , dont be emo alr okay ?
just want you to know that i'm always here for ya .
you can always talk or look for me if you need someone to talk to .
but i guess it wont be of much use lahs ?
after all , some incident kinda screwed the impression huh ?
well , i cant really express how i feel right now ,
with words alone .
but , i'm feeling damn confused .
if only you're here for me like you were someday .
*sigh*
i'm trying very hard to be there for you .
but i guess you dont know ?
just give me that one chance , will you ?
i really dont know what to do lahs .
if things are better as it is , so be it .
but i really cant keep everything inside me anymore ):
&I really dont know how to tell you how
i feel and stuffs .
it's like , i've had enough lahs .
really , i'm tired .
guess i've been giving myself false hope all along ?
please , i wanna love you .
but i know i cant .
not now , when i know that it aint gonna work out .
after all , you're still holding on .
i dont wanna come between ,
i'm sorry i've been selfish .
i really am , if you know who and what i'm talking abt ?
fcuk this damn world of mine .
i hate this freaking life , it's killing me ):
Labels: disappointed and lost . so confused ):, i'm feeling so hurt
