wont be blogging till i feel like doing so .
i'm trying very hard to be the crazy me again .
guess it's not that easy lahs ?
it's like , i get blamed for everything that went wrong ):
guess no one really understands how i feel .
ever since young , i've been trying real hard to
satisfy my mom and all the elders .
i just dont get that love and attention from them lahs .
since ytd , my mom keep finding faults
with me again .
like , what the fcuk lahs ?
I SERIOUSLY HATE HOME A LOT !!!
it's like , i dont know how to continue .
i wanna scream , but i cant .
my heart's aching , a whole lot .
but there's nth i can do .
i've tried , i've given up , i'm tired !
then , say my friends .
i dont want them to be unhappy , so i try my best to cheer them up .
what do i get ?
i just feel all that i'm doing isn't helping at all .
i'm so disappointed , lost for words .
i no longer know how to express myself .
instead of cheering them up , i seem to be making them
annoyed or irritated .
what's wrong with me ?
i dont understand .
i'm so lost , the cross-road of my life .
have been telling myself ,' it's okay , I MUST BE STRONG.'
now ?
i cant take it anymore .
when will my burden lighten ?
it's real tiring having to pull through all this .
i'm not weak lahs , like what someone say .
dont wanna blog abt unhappy stuffs .
when i look back , it'll only be misery .
guess i'll have to put up with it till the day i know why
all this is happening .
maybe GOD had planned all of this .
kangwei:
if you ever read this , i want you to know
that you're not alone .
if you're still upset , dont be .
cheer up okay ?
you'll look better , trust me (:
PIG:
when i say dont be over crazy ,
i mean not to the extend that you say things that would
hurt someone else .
but , i have to admit , i prefer the crazy you .
i dont know why but now i kinda regret saying so
much .
wanted to cheer you up , but i guess you're still sad .
nth's gonna change if you dont wanna change .
i've been through it .
whether or not you trust me , it's up to you .
got nth to say anymore , dont wanna be a burden .
i know you'll say i think too much .
but , trust me , i'm just upset for now .
things will get better soon .
likewise , it applies to you as well .
Labels: i'm tired, take over from here .
