first thing . blogging seems to be a burden to me now .
i'm tired of blogging ,
had replaced all happiness with unhappiness .
i'm so full of hatred , really (:
i fucking despise sluts like you .
seriously , go get some life and stop acting .
dont you know that you're such a goner ?
__I__
dread blogging , dread updating profiles .
really , i'm dead tired right now .
i shouldnt just vend my anger on anyone .
i'm damn unhappy with you .
you've got a problem with that ?
THANK GOD YOU DONT KNOW ME .
or else you'll be sorry ,
trust me . i've should just stop vending my anger on
anyone else when you're the one i despise so much .
EDITING sucks big time .
come on lahs , who you trying to fool ?
you want attention just tell that person lahs ?
my blog's polluted with vulgarities .
hurhur . this is gonna be the last time .
i swear , i wash my hands off everything that
has got to do with you .
you ever play with me or my friends ,
you'd better watch out .
i'm warning you ,
i'm not made to hate .
you try pissing me off any further , you're gonna be sorry .
to all who were there for me :
thanks for being there .
you gusy were there when i needed y'all most .
really , i'll still be freaking miserable if not for your support
and all .
i'm seriously feeling much better alr .
all the hurts , i find happiness in them somehow .
it was a good experience ,
i've hurt many .
i've been too selfish as well .
i sincerely apologise and hope
that things will go back to the way it used to be .
i may be broken now ,
but i no longer fear .
cause i know i'm not alone .
THANK YOU , i really appreciate it .
sometimes , we say things w/o thinking .
we hurt them so much but we dint really .
by the time you realise it ,
you find that it's all too late .
somethings , when done , it could nvr be the same again .
&you'll start thinking ,
why am i so selfish ?
have i ever thought about how the other person feel ?
tend to think too highly of ourselves .
this is definitely not what i'd wanted .
but , it's too late now ,
i regret so much .
filled with remorse now .
what can i do ?
life is full of ups and downs .
i'm gonna learn my lesson and just move on .
i'll put whatever unhappiness behind me and
move on with a smile .
i wont let my friends down ,
i nvr want to anymore .
i'm stucked , but i'll find a way out .
i know i can do it ,
i wont depend on anyone ,
i'll face this on my own :D
dont wanna let you guys worry .
fret not , i'll be okay .
i've gone through more than enough ,
this is nothing .
i want everyone to be happy from now on aites ?
no matter what you do ,
always rmb , do it only if you're happy .
&if you ever need someone to be there ,
be it a listening ear or a shoulder to lean on ,
i'll always be here .
i dont want to be a 'princess' anymore ,
TOO MUCH hardships .
so much so that i'm feeling numb .
it's not worth it ,
i'll just continue to be who i am .
i'm me , no one can change the fact .
sorry to those i've hurt .
i've said more than enough sorry(s) .
i'll think abt how others feel from now on .
i know it's not worth doing all this .
i;ve got it .
but let me finish this entry ,
for the last time .
i'm nvr gonna bring this up anymore .
to you :
i'm sorry for all that i've said .
it wasnt supposed to be directed at you ,
but , yeaps . i'm just sorry .
&please , bear in mind that no matter what ,
you're still my friend .
i wont hate you ,
i nvr will .
please , if i'd been a burden or anything to you ,
i'm sorry as well .
dint mean to waste your time and all :x
Ii seriously dont know what's going on in your mind
right now lahs ?
dotn know if you still trwat me as your friend .
i really hope you'll treat me like you used to .
i feel so miserable ,
trust me when i say i do .
&whatever was said last night ,
had thought about it .
really very sorry , i dont know what else to say .
i've nvr felt this hurt before .
but i'd kept it inside me .
dont worry , i'll bear that in mind .
if you ever need someone to talk to and all ,
i'll still be here for you .
i hope you'll give me that support too .
dont like to be treated this way .
i dont know what to say anymore .
i'm lost for words , mind's blank .
all i can say is that i hate myself a lot .
i'd been a pest to some people .
*sigh*
i've also neglected how my friends feel .
i'm too selfish , i really am .
i wanna scream so much ,
but i cant seem to do it .
i always say i'm sad , buit i say it with a smile .
what's wrong with me ?
why cant i just let out my emotions ?
I FEEL SO FUCKED UP .
like , RAHHHHHHHH !!
GOD, i pray that you'll hear my prayer
and let things go back to normal .
i'm willing to do anything , really .
i asked for it , i deserve it .
perhap's this is retribution .
Labels: that idiot who tagged was me . hate me if you must (:
