} secrets are meant to be unknown :D MEMORIES <#3

♥ Friday, December 28, 2007

went to sch for mass choir prac today . bryan was there as well ! met him at sch gate then walk in tgt . -.- anyw , everything was normal (= saw the ring on his finger . borrowed it from him to take a look . dint expect him to pass the other one to me , making up a pair . *sigh* i pretend i knew nth and ask : isnt it the same ? like , duhh ? lol . whatever luhhs ! returned it to him after that . dint want him to get the wrong idea (: he asked me to catch a movie but i turned him down . met BOYFRIEND after that . told him abt it . well , dun want bryan to know too much also . afraid he's girl will come after me ! dun want others to think i'm just too desperate to do something like snatching away one's boy . too bad luhhs , i treat him as a super ultra close brother ONLY ! NTH ELSE MORE THAN THAT . its IMPOSSIBLE (= 'honey sweetie baby' lol . i'm happy and lucky i have such a sweeeeet boyfriend . he's caring and all (= not like other guys , who dont respect me . anyw , you look cute even when you're sleeping , baby ! &you said so many things i dint expect to hear (: HAHAHA :DD well , i just want you to know that i'll nvr leave you , alright ? i cant bear to leave you as well ! lol . imiss&loveyousomuch ! i'll always be here for you no matter what happens . you're the first guy who make me blush almost every moment i talk to you (= you make my heart melt . you're all i ever needed , my everything ! words alone cant prove how much you mean to me . but , i know myself (= my heart beats for you alone . you're sweet in every way . when you're sleeping . when you're shy , blushing (: the way you talk and treat me , i feel so loved , so real ! what would i be w/o you ? love you always . no one can replace you luhhs !

Labels: i'll always be here . i wanna be here for you always (=, no matter what happens

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♥ Thursday, December 27, 2007

well , i woke up .

then , went to look for friend give something !

lol .

went to mall in the afternoon to

meet dear (=

his friends came with him .

then , i super paiseh luhhs !

after that , we went to library read

some kind of book luhhs .

then dear face so red luhhs !

like tomamto , so shy [x

got bored after that so we

left then sat at my hse

void deck !

*laughs*

then , after that , haha .

dun want say what happened luhhs ! xD

he pei me go NTUC buy things for

dinner .

so ma lu luhhs ?

he walked me home after that .

ohh , he bought mocha and from

what i know , it sucks !

lol .

he dint finish it luhhs .

haha ! =D

hrms , lets see .

today's the happiest day of my life !

i love my boyfriend a whole lot ! (=

lol , i'm the luckiest girl in the world

right nw .

boy , thanks for today .

i'm so happy luhhs ! =D

you're the best present ever from santa !

lol .

我会永远爱你的 !

you're all i ever needed .

my everything (:

you're the first guy who made me

feel ever so loved , seriously .

&you respect me more than anyone

else (x

i'll love you till the end of time !

you're mine . RAWRR .

lol ! xD

Labels: dear, i love you .

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♥ Monday, December 24, 2007

ohh yeahh .

i'm back from M'SIA alr !

woohoo :DD

*laughs*

anyw , had a great time with my

lovely cousins there .

so much fun . . but still , imcomplete .

if only NATALIE went as well . ):

well , nvm bout that .

HAHAHA ! xD

we took a whole lot of pictures there .

whole trip was abt shopping , slacking

& taking photos ?

ohh , yarhh .

i forgot to state this :

not much of gossips luhhs .

we dun have much in common , you see .

*laughs*

guess what ?

my aunt so called adopted a DOG !

like , awww .

so cute luhhs ?

anyw , i've only got pics .

dun wanna talk much (=

well , the most impt. thing is . .

I MISS EVERYONE ~!

hahaha xD

hrms , i bought things for

some ppl luhhs .

ohh , and my birthday was kinda

boring luhhs ?

L0LS :DD

but to all who sent me msges

or comment , thanks .

so sweet of y'all (:

dun really have much to talk abt

lehhs .

L0LS :DD

just hope to hang out with

sher , ber , xuan , fiona , NICK &

NATALIE before sch reopens .

hahahah ! xD

well , i got to go alr luhhs .

i'll blog again sometime soon !

L0LS :DD

toodles .

we were very near to kissing ! L0LS :DD

almost complete . just short of the best one , NATALIE !

ling , you're the funny one .

and this is one cute doggie .

well , this is all for nw ! (=

Labels: i'm missing you, pretty boy .

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♥ Saturday, December 08, 2007

well , life goes on as it is . i went out with my DEAREST cousin , NATALIE 2day (= had A WHOLE LOTTA fun !!! calls from mommy were exceptions ! like , duhh ? L0LS ?! :DD

msged kor last night telling him i'll be attending the 6pm mass ! he dint reply luhhs . like , wth ? CRAP LUHHS ! =.= anyw , i was a lil late but still attended . HAHAHA :DD stand thru out the whole mass narhhs ! nvm bout that luhhs .

after mass , my emotions were back to normal . like , damn emo ? *sigh* mommy control me too much luhhs ! i'm no longer the small girl she know luhhs , can ? imma big girl nw ! L0LS :DD

ohh yarhh . apart from that , i wanna let 'someone' know that from 2day onwards , i'm not gonna care bout what you're gonna do anymore ! well , firstly , its because you have new friends and you no longer need me . I'M N0T NEEDED ANYMORE ! amazing huh ? DAMN . oh , sofcukedup ! whenever i tried to be there for you and all , you just dun feel my presence huh ? i mean , come on luhhs . i dint know i was so . . INVISIBLE ? hur hur !!!!

i was there all along but you dint even know that . you're always complaining when you've had all you ever needed ! have you ever thought abt it ? like , how i feel and all ? i doubt so . if you had , wont be feeling so miserable nw can ? if you had enuf of me , pls let me know ! cuz i dun wanna be treated like a doll . like , you come and go as and when you like it ? hell . NO MAN ! i feel hurt . . . seriously . i've had enuf ! you reeeeally dun know what i'm thinking know , dont you ? well , i'll tell ya ! think abt it , i made an effort to be there and confide in you . but you cant care more ? you made new friends , forgetting the old ones . HOW SAD HUH ?! i nvr tot of you as such a person till just now . its like , i know you saw me but . . you just walked off w/o saying hello ! what if i do that to you ?

exactly what you did to me when i'm with my friends ? and i greeted another friend i just knew not long ago . its like , wow , crap ! idk what's with you or me . i just dun feel like caring bout yr stuffs anymore . i'm tired , really . you hurt me so badly okayye ? to think i've treated you like someone dear to me for so long and you do this to me ? if this is what you want , fine then ! i'll pretend i nvr see you when i actually did and i'll carry on w/o talking to ya . this is why i'm not telling you things ! cuz we've drifted . . A LOT !!!! idk who am i anymore . idk if you're still the nice , funny and caring guy who'll make an effort to understand how i feel , to be there to support me and give me encouragement whenever i feel like giving up . i really dun know . . yr impression on me is gone . its true , i dint msg you and tell you things . ever asked yrself why ? i really hope i could share my problems and joys with you . but , i guess nw i know i dun have to ? cuz i'm no longer recognized , you have yr friends and i'm just so invisible ! you make me feel so rejected can ? i'm so disappointed with you ! nvr tot you'll treat me this way . for once i so wanna avoid you and hate you ! i swear this isnt what i wanted . i guess yr friends are more imp. bahhs ? i treat you like before though you dint . but i really cant take it nw since i've seen for myself . cant imagine . . i was so near yet so far ! *sigh* is there really no one i can trust ? maybe i'm thinking too much luhhs . but , its a fact . anyw , if you know that i'm talking bout you , good for ya . hope you'll tell me that i think too much .

i'm sorry if i've said too many hurtful things . but , from what i see , feel and know nw , this is what i conclude . i can tell you i'm really damn hurt . yes , i'm too sensitive i guess ? anyw , you really made a diff in my life . with you around , i'll feel so motivated to move on . but , you just broke my heart 2day . . the way you treated me ? *SIGH* just come talk to me if you think i've said something wrong here !

&i'm thinking , if i ever meant anything

to you .

like , are you treating me the right way like how

i treat you ?

stop pushing me away cuz i'd rather

walk away by myself .

pls , end this misery of mine for me !

i love you like i always do .

if its wrong , let me know cause i'll

make myself hate you back so that you'll

be able to have more time with yr

NEW friends .

i wont be a burden to you then !

Labels: i feel so betrayed and idk what to do . can i ever trust you again ? IMY . . . so much .

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♥ Monday, December 03, 2007

its nice to be happy . but , just how long can it last ? *sigh* sometimes , things just dun go right luhhs . what you expect might not be what you'll get in the end . its just too sad , so disappointing ! well , have been leading a rather happy life . but , guess i have to admit i'm not happy now ? N0T AT ALL ! perhaps its cuz of my thinking bahhs . its like , i have so much to say and share with ppl i treasure . . A LOT ! but , i dun have the courage ? what i'm gonna say is for YOU ! you shld know who are you bahhs ? anyw , here goes : i'm sorry for not telling you my problems and all . but , have you ever thought abt it ? like , you're busy preparing for yr exams . yeahh , that i'm clear . just say , you're too busy alr luhhs ! but i've nvr forgotten what we did last time ? playing some stupid pillow fighting and all . i still rmb it . . till now . its just you ? think abt it , no msges , nth . comparing the past and the present , yeahh , we sort of drifted . but i guess its okayye . i've nvr blamed you ! but , nw all i ask for is that you do well for yr exams and i'll tell you whats wrong slowly . cuz i cant open up nw . i really cant . . idk if you're still who you are . or shld i say idk if i'm still the same as last time . i'll just wait till you're free okayye ? i need time to sort out my feelings . i'm very disappointed and lost right now ): if only someone would help me step out of this misery . . . *sigh* this just wont happen . its . . IMPOSSIBLE ! this is all i have to say for nw . &yeahh , sorry for being rude just nw ? i dint mean to answer back , but , my mood's just like that nw . anyw , i have so much to tell you . its just that , i dun have to the courage to tell you cuz i know it just wont work out ? sometimes i wonder if you're thinking what i'm thinking . like , late night calls and all ? it just seems so ytd . i'm sorry . . but , idk if i shld tell you how i feel . 我能爱你吗? this is a question i dun think i'll ever get an answer that i expected bahhs . yeahh , even you say i think too much ! then i guess i wont tell you bahhs ? i'll just be here to support you in everything that you do and admire you from afar . HAPPY PILL , give me an anwer if you ever find my blog and read this whole junk aites ? i hope you'll be happy after reading this and i'm sorry . i really cant tell you though you wanna know ? if its meant to be , it'll be . love is painful , love is blind , love is uncontrollable , love is unbearable , love is unconditional , love is when i knew you . . i hope this is true , really . *sigh*

what if i told you you're the last person

i would wanna hurt ?

you wont know how i'm feeling right

now , i guess .

no one will , its so confusing .

i'm thinking . . shld i give up ,

or not ?

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