well , life goes on as it is .
i went out with my DEAREST
cousin , NATALIE 2day (=
had A WHOLE LOTTA fun !!!
calls from mommy were
exceptions !
like , duhh ?
L0LS ?! :DD
msged kor last night telling
him i'll be attending the 6pm mass !
he dint reply luhhs .
like , wth ?
CRAP LUHHS ! =.=
anyw , i was a lil late but still
attended .
HAHAHA :DD
stand thru out the whole mass narhhs !
nvm bout that luhhs .
after mass , my emotions were back to
normal .
like , damn emo ?
*sigh*
mommy control me too much luhhs !
i'm no longer the small girl she
know luhhs , can ?
imma big girl nw !
L0LS :DD
ohh yarhh .
apart from that , i wanna let 'someone'
know that from 2day onwards , i'm
not gonna care bout what you're gonna do
anymore !
well , firstly , its because you have new friends
and you no longer need me .
I'M N0T NEEDED ANYMORE !
amazing huh ?
DAMN . oh , sofcukedup !
whenever i tried to be there for you
and all , you just dun feel my presence huh ?
i mean , come on luhhs .
i dint know i was so . . INVISIBLE ?
hur hur !!!!
i was there all along but you dint even
know that .
you're always complaining when you've had all
you ever needed !
have you ever thought abt it ?
like , how i feel and all ?
i doubt so .
if you had , wont be feeling so miserable nw can ?
if you had enuf of me , pls let me know !
cuz i dun wanna be treated like a doll .
like , you come and go as and when you like
it ?
hell . NO MAN !
i feel hurt . . . seriously .
i've had enuf !
you reeeeally dun know what i'm thinking know ,
dont you ?
well , i'll tell ya !
think abt it , i made an effort to be there and
confide in you .
but you cant care more ?
you made new friends , forgetting the old ones .
HOW SAD HUH ?!
i nvr tot of you as such a person till just now .
its like , i know you saw me but . .
you just walked off w/o saying hello !
what if i do that to you ?
exactly what you did to me when i'm with my
friends ?
and i greeted another friend i just knew not long ago .
its like , wow , crap !
idk what's with you or me .
i just dun feel like caring bout yr stuffs anymore .
i'm tired , really .
you hurt me so badly okayye ?
to think i've treated you like someone dear to me
for so long and you do this to me ?
if this is what you want , fine then !
i'll pretend i nvr see you when i actually did
and i'll carry on w/o talking to ya .
this is why i'm not telling you things !
cuz we've drifted . . A LOT !!!!
idk who am i anymore .
idk if you're still the nice , funny and caring guy
who'll make an effort to understand how i feel ,
to be there to support me and give me encouragement
whenever i feel like giving up .
i really dun know . . yr impression on me is gone .
its true , i dint msg you and tell you things .
ever asked yrself why ?
i really hope i could share my problems and joys with
you .
but , i guess nw i know i dun have to ?
cuz i'm no longer recognized ,
you have yr friends and i'm just so invisible !
you make me feel so rejected can ?
i'm so disappointed with you !
nvr tot you'll treat me this way .
for once i so wanna avoid you and hate
you !
i swear this isnt what i wanted .
i guess yr friends are more imp. bahhs ?
i treat you like before though you dint .
but i really cant take it nw since i've seen for myself .
cant imagine . .
i was so near yet so far !
*sigh*
is there really no one i can trust ?
maybe i'm thinking too much luhhs .
but , its a fact .
anyw , if you know that i'm talking bout you ,
good for ya .
hope you'll tell me that i think too much .
i'm sorry if i've said too many hurtful things .
but , from what i see , feel and know nw ,
this is what i conclude .
i can tell you i'm really damn hurt .
yes , i'm too sensitive i guess ?
anyw , you really made a diff in my life .
with you around , i'll feel so
motivated to move on .
but , you just broke my heart 2day . .
the way you treated me ?
*SIGH*
just come talk to me if you
think i've said something wrong
here !
&i'm thinking , if i ever meant anything
to you .
like , are you treating me the right way like how
i treat you ?
stop pushing me away cuz i'd rather
walk away by myself .
pls , end this misery of mine for me !
i love you like i always do .
if its wrong , let me know cause i'll
make myself hate you back so that you'll
be able to have more time with yr
NEW friends .
i wont be a burden to you then !
Labels: i feel so betrayed and idk what to do . can i ever trust you again ? IMY . . . so much .
